Oh the joy of the Lord’s chastening! What?! Did I really say that? Yes…yes I did!
Did you ever get directions and take off running on your own…only to find out later that you only obeyed partially because you did not stay long enough to understand the full extent of what was said? This was a bad habit I used to have and one that I thought I overcame. Well, unfortunately I was wrong!
Last year when the Lord was speaking to me during my quiet time, He kept repeating,
“Don’t look back!”
I understood this as a “command“. Unfortunately, I neglected to seek Holy Spirit to guide me in fully understanding this statement. By relying on what I thought I understood, I missed that the Lord’s words were also a “warning“ to me and not just a command!
As I shared in my last post, That’s Not Your Garment!, my family went through a major shift in direction. For several months the Lord told me He would be moving us and as the time got closer, He would remind me, “Don’t look back!”
Holy Spirit even led me to Luke 9:57-62, The Cost of Following Jesus, to confirm. Specifically, Luke 9:62 says, “But Jesus told him, ‘Anyone who puts a hand to the plow and then looks back is not fit for the Kingdom of God.’“ So if I daydreamed of how things used to be or how I wished they could have been, I would immediately feel that tug in my heart, and change my thinking to remain “fit for the Kingdom of God”. Since I thought I had a clear understanding, I never sought God any further on this subject.
Proverbs 3:5-6 says, “Lean not on your understanding, but acknowledge Him and He will make you paths straight.”
Well, although I thought I was in complete obedience, I wasn’t and therefore, my path began to weave and turn in directions that made it more difficult for me to keep a kingdom focus. Matter of fact, some turns were downright painful! These twists and turns were not God’s plan for me. But praise the Lord for His unending love and faithfulness! He never left nor forsook me and was always there with open arms when I would run to Him for comfort!
In a time of deeply crying out to God, He revealed to me that my desire to never turn my back on someone in need, was so strong that I neglected to seek Him on how to handle the relationship or the subject matter. Holy Spirit attempted to straighten my path by speaking through my husband. I sadly admit that I assumed he was speaking out of his flesh and dismissed his words of wisdom. This would have been a great time to humble myself and seek God about what Curtis shared with me. But I missed that opportunity as well.
Oh how I cried when the Lord told me, [“Daughter, your heart was right and your intentions were right, but your desire to be right caused you not to continue seeking Me regarding this relationship.”] Although I thought I was being a good friend, listening to things that sometimes deeply hurt me and rising above them so I would not turn my back on someone, and even ministering well by leading the person to seek God and His direction for them to take, it was NOT what God had for me at that time!
I don’t know if you’re like me, but I hate making mistakes like this! It’s easy for the enemy to rear his ugly head and tell me I should have known better. But, when I choose to come before the throne in complete surrender and humility, God’s gets to lavish His love on me! I’m so grateful for the boundaries the Lord gives to protect me and guard my heart at all times! I’m so grateful for His unending love for me, to chasten or discipline me because He wants the best for me!
Proverbs 3:11-12 says, “My child, don’t reject the Lord’s discipline [chastening], and don’t be upset when He corrects you. For the Lord corrects those He loves, just as a father corrects a child in whom he delights.“
So the next time you feel the chastening of the Lord, may your heart be reminded how much He loves you and wants the best for you. The fruit of it, is worth it!
Hebrews 12:10-11 says, “…but He disciplines [chastens] us for our good, so that we may share His holiness. All discipline [chastening] for the moment seems not to be joyful, but sorrowful [painful]; yet to those who have been trained by it, afterwards it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness.“